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Happy 2019

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I came across my old deviantwear while cleaning out my closet and it made me a little nostalgic so I figured, why not make a journal again?
Wont have any pretty journal skin like back in the days, I remember using the bunny one most.
Wait, it let's me preview it in the skin so I wonder if it will actually submit as such too?

I figured I'd let those that still linger around here know that I'm doing quite okay. Amazing actually if you were to compare it to my years on deviantart. I am 3 years clean, I have very little remaining symptoms of my mental ilness(es), I still see a psychologist but not as frequently. I'm still on medication and I do not plan to stop taking it anytime soon. I am in my final year of my study and I really hope I will graduate and get a job I love. I'm still a volunteer at the animal shelter and I spend every weekend there.

Me and my partner have been together for a little over four years and we are actually engaged, haha. Though any actual planning for marriage is not yet there, but the plan in our mind is! : P

I have gone through many challenges but it seems I always come out on top so far. I know I'm not perfect but nobody is. I understand my diagnoses and I think I have a much better idea of how to cope with my struggles.

anyway, figured id do an update, hope you re all doing well
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Rise like a Phoenix.

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I wonder which of you are still active? I you haven't unwatched me that is. I plan to use this account again.
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Hello World

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I was on a vacation to the Czech republic, Austria, and Europa Park.
It was nice to relax without internet and the news. I really missed my dog (who stayed at my grandparents) but he showered me with kisses this morning. I feel difficult (lol is that even an expression) about it because I need to adjust to walking him again and he can be difficult to handle if you're not used to him. I'm pretty sure it'll be fine in no time though. It's just one of the little things that gives me stress sometimes.

Now I'm going to write.

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hello!

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just making this journal because people have asked where I was and stuff. I'm really just here actually, only the difference is that I don't post art or talk with any of you (sorry). I'm working really hard on a Lady Boyle cosplay right now, and it's basically all done, I only need to put the final parts together to create the hat. I'm also helping my mother with her cosplay (I do all the sewing for it) and we're almost done. I'll be sure to post pictures when everything's finished.

I've also been spending a lot of my time knitting, because knitting is amazingly relaxing and it makes me super content about life.

I have been drawing actually, but I do not feel as if uploading it here serves any purpose. I'm currently drawing a lot of my favourite characters (which both play in horror movies or animated disney ones) to practice how I work with colour and digitally. Maybe I'll upload them all at once when I've drawn a couple.

As for my well being.
I'm doing quite good if I look at my lifespan. Though I get confronted with a lot of complications and I struggle. The fact that I've faced a lot of pain has made me more resistent to it emotionally. I think my medication also helps take the damage.

Regardless of this, I find that I've never encountered a subject as personal and sensitive as this. Luckily I can talk about it daily with people I consider good friends. There surely is a lot of pain and discomfort in my life. But I'm able to experience peace as well. That's really all I ever desired from life, to be able to be peaceful.

If you want to talk about anything specific just note me. I check daily. (:

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Allo!

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Feels like ages once again, though I know it's probably not been too long.

I feel, really strangely actually, kinda like, just content, but then again with a dash of discomfort randomly destributed throughout the week. Plus the time flies by at a 130km/h speed. I literally blink and it's weekend again. It's insane how fast stuff happens, then at the same time you look back and think: huh, was that only a month ago?

I get a lot more jealous and a lot more embarrassed but then other times I get a lot more comfortable and a lot more generally happy. My family get's a lot better at calling me Noah & I actually have a binder now. I talk a lot more with my brother too.

Really need a haircut again. Going to try out something only slightly different I guess. Really want to get it shorter cause currently it's a wild mess whahaha.

I feel a lot more confident, more accomplished, more happy really. Sometimes I really struggle with myself for obvious reasons (though maybe only obvious to me) I'm able to look at the world the way you look at the world when you're in love, like a buddhist does. I know in the end I don't have much control over emotions, but I like to believe I do. I certainly helped myself. I'm so much less embarrassed and so much more at peace with myself. Sometimes it strikes me that things are wrong, but I'm doing the best I can and the world's a very pretty place after all. I just have that feeling that like, woah, yes this is totally me and this has been me all my life and woah it's really nice to just acknowledge myself.

Also, I haven't picked up a pencil or used my tablet since the last drawing you got in your inbox (at least a month). I've been doing nothing creative besides knitting. I'm actually fine with that for now. apparently I can't do both at the same time. I really have zero motivation for art. zeroo. which will resolve itself over time.

If any of you want to talk to me just send me a message. I prefer messages over chat with most people. Also if you just want to vent about your own life, I'm still that person who's unable to be judgmental.

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